Wednesday, March 20, 2013

Today

One week left to go in the 2WW.  It seems like forever.

I'm healing well now and able to do most things but of course, I'm being careful.  J and Logan came to visit for a few hours today.  I loved having them here.  I was careful with how I picked him up but by the end, I was sore and tired and was ready to lay down.  I don't think I can do a full day babysitting on Monday.  But it is a few days away yet.  I will be healed even more by then.

I woke up this morning with nausea and my moods aren't the best.  Crinone and Pregnyl combined I guess.  The clinic rang today to follow up with how I was.  Really, I'm doing well.  It's just a tough process to go through.

I've been thinking today about all that my body and emotions have gone through in the last few months.  Two miscarriages and ICSI round.  Tough on both.  I'm tired.

I was hoping Dave would be home by the time I have to leave tonight.  But he has to work late.  So, I'm about to give myself the clexane injection.  It's harder to get into the skin than the IVF drugs and boy does it leave a mark!  If you looked at stomach now, you would think I was a junkie!

I really needed the support of Dave here tonight.  But of course, I will be fine.  I will get myself injected, fed and off to my meeting with no problems.  I just don't feel like I'm coping very well right now.  And I'm finding the 2WW really stressful as well.  I'm scared.  I really need it to work this time around.

Always seeking the Love and Light....

xx

2 comments:

  1. I found you from another blogger that I read and I have been following along this month on your journey to become a Mom. I am 45 years old and had 2 miscarriage and now childless, but in a good place about it all - 3 years later. I hope and pray that this works for you and your hubs and that your dream of having a family comes true. Sending you lots of prayers and big hugs. You are going thru a lot to achieve this and I wanted you to know that someone out here in blogland is supporting and cheering you on all the way!

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  2. Hi Jen, thanks for leaving such a lovely comment. And thank you for reading our journey and supporting me in blogland. It's nice to know!
    xxx

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