After a stressful couple of days, todays test results show that our pregnancy is progressing really well!!! HCG levels have gone from 99 two days ago, to 265 today - they've nearly tripled!!
I am SO relieved! We are still pregnant!
It's been a tough two days. Once the initial excitement were off, I started worrying. Please, please, please embies, keep growing, snuggle in, HCG levels keep rising. I've been so scared. I've been really trying not to but it's just been there. Waiting for these results have been so much harder than waiting for the initial result saying we were pregnant. It felt like there was so much more at stake.
And then I started spotting a little. The leftover crinone began releasing with specks of colour in it. Mostly the colour was brown, but sometimes it wasn't so brown. And then today I started spotting more. Once again though, mostly old blood. The times when it wasn't quite brown absolutely terrified me.
And the results took so long to come in. I was expecting them by 2 pm at the latest. They didn't come in till 5 pm. It's been a tough day. But finally they arrived and I couldn't believe the number. 265!!!
The nurse said not to worry about the spotting. The crinone release is normal and as long as the blood is old it is all good. As for the couple of times I felt it wasn't quite old, she said is could be anything. Implantation blood even. Shes taken note of it and will follow up on Monday but she said not to worry. That my levels were terrific. And we are doing everything that needs to be done. She said go away and have a relaxing Easter! Things are progressing well.
I go in again on Monday for a final follow up blood test. That one should be around 1000 in hcg levels. So fingers crossed.
A friend said today that I just need to trust. TRUST. It is a good word. A reassuring word. A word of faith and belief. A word of confidence. A word of peacefulness, serenity, love. I like it.
This afternoon I started wearing around my wrist, the pouch of buddhist prayers my dear friend brought back from Japan with me. It is the one that I had with me on our wedding day, and I took with me to both the egg harvest and embryo transfer. It really helped me to settle down a little this afternoon. And I guess it brought with it Trust and Faith.
It is still on my wrist!
So now I go away with Trust in my heart and soul and know that once again we are progressing well through each step of the IVF process.