Well, I can’t believe it is happening again so quickly, but I am flying again tonight. This was an unexpected trip due to a tragedy in D’s immediate family. We are flying to Sydney to be with them and to attend the funeral.
I am feeling a lot calmer right now than I did at this point last time, which is good. I am still getting some feelings of panic but am able to think rationally about it and to breathe deeply.
This is my fertile week now, so there is the possibility that I could conceive between now and when we return on Sunday, if not already. So, it is going to be especially important that I try to stay calm on the flights. I never wanted to fly when I was pregnant. But I am hoping I have made enough progress on my fears that it won’t be an issue. And maybe it won’t be an issue at such an early stage anyway.
Wish me luck and inner calm.