It is most definitely here. And once again, things are different this time around.
I've never had a problem with the TWW before. We've waited the two weeks every cycle for 4 years. It's always just been part of the course. Whether through stimulated cylce or natural. But this time, with the hopes and dreams I have for this cycle, and the way things have been going so well for the first time in one of my rounds, I started feeling the tension yesterday.
I also started feeling fears that embryos weren't growing or that something was going wrong. And I realised what a roller coaster ride I am in for the next two weeks.
I've been in a lot of pain and discomfort and I feet the need for the next few days to really relax and take it easy and lay down a lot. In fact, it has also been forced on me as well. Even doing the dishes yesterday brought about abdominal pains. But the moment I felt them, I stopped the dishes and lay down.
I understand where the fears are coming from, but I refuse to let them take hold. Instead I've been focusing on Love and Light. I've been meditating on them and feeling both of these flowing through me, through my chakras and into my womb. Feeling the breath of God.
My kinesiology session yesterday was amazing and has really helped me to be able to feel these things.
The first thing she was led to were my ovaries which she said were dehydrated. Makes sense. They've gone through a lot. She worked on them and also on stimulating the energy in my uterus, getting the blood flowing and getting it all ready to receive the embryos.
For my part, I have continued to drink 2.5 litres of water a day, and constantly go to the toilet!! Yet despite all the water I am drinking, my lips are really dry and sore and need constant lip balm - a sign of dehydration. But I can't drink anymore than I am. I would have to just stay on the toilet all day if I did!!! :) So, I'm also concentrating on eating foods that are hydrating as well as full of nutrients.
The kinesiologist also worked on aligning the energy throughout my body, allowing the channels to flow and making it easy for new little energies to find their way! The words I left with are:
- Joy, acceptance and unconditional love
- Self worth, self love
- Trust and higher self alignment
- Hydration and Nutrition
And finally, my naturopath/masseur. The fact that that appointment occurred the day before transfer is really significant. The massages that I usually need, I won't be able to have when pregnant because she works on areas that can also encourage contrations. So, it was wonderful to be able to have, what will hopefully be my last full massage for the next 9 months! And once again, some of the points that she found were all about good blood flow to my uterus amongst other things.
A perfect pre-transfer day!