6 more sleeps till testing day! I could test on Monday but they have warned us that with all the hormones we, that is I!!!, am taking, it is possible to get a false positive with a home pregnancy test. So its best to wait and do the blood test with them.
I fluctuate between fear and confidence.
There is a part of me that knows this is the one and that is the part that I try and stay connected to. There are no assurances and I know us succeeding will defy the odds (thus the fear), but this cycle has gone perfectly. There have been no complications and there have been 10 signs of encouragement that I have written about over several posts this week!!
All of me knows how much I will thrive as a mother. My whole world will change for the better. My whole self will change for the better. I look forward to rising to the challenges and to taking care of a little soul. And yes, I even look forward to the tiredness because our little being(s) will bring so much joy and love and completeness.
This is what gets me through the days, this knowing, this feeling of being centered and calm. And when the fear comes up, I move inside myself and feel the joy of being pregnant whether I am or not. I focus on our little embryos and I picture them burrowed into my uterine wall, peaceful and content and growing rapidly!