Today

One week left to go in the 2WW.  It seems like forever.

I'm healing well now and able to do most things but of course, I'm being careful.  J and Logan came to visit for a few hours today.  I loved having them here.  I was careful with how I picked him up but by the end, I was sore and tired and was ready to lay down.  I don't think I can do a full day babysitting on Monday.  But it is a few days away yet.  I will be healed even more by then.

I woke up this morning with nausea and my moods aren't the best.  Crinone and Pregnyl combined I guess.  The clinic rang today to follow up with how I was.  Really, I'm doing well.  It's just a tough process to go through.

I've been thinking today about all that my body and emotions have gone through in the last few months.  Two miscarriages and ICSI round.  Tough on both.  I'm tired.

I was hoping Dave would be home by the time I have to leave tonight.  But he has to work late.  So, I'm about to give myself the clexane injection.  It's harder to get into the skin than the IVF drugs and boy does it leave a mark!  If you looked at stomach now, you would think I was a junkie!

I really needed the support of Dave here tonight.  But of course, I will be fine.  I will get myself injected, fed and off to my meeting with no problems.  I just don't feel like I'm coping very well right now.  And I'm finding the 2WW really stressful as well.  I'm scared.  I really need it to work this time around.

Always seeking the Love and Light....

xx