A few months ago, I took advantage of the free counselling service they have the fertility clinic. I needed to talk to a professional about all that had been going on. The lady was really good and it was so helpful to talk to her.
In the process of my session, the issues of my eating addiction came up. She recommended another shrink who she believed would really be able to help me. This lady, Shona, is just amazing. I've had 7 sessions with her and they have been amazing and intense and really helpful. But my allocated sessions have run out, so I needed to go and have a review with the doctor to get 4 more assisted sessions.
My doctor has been good with our fertility journey and I told the doctor about the last two miscarriages. She added a second reason that I still needed counselling - grief.
I've often talked about the loss I feel, but understanding that there is grief surrounding that loss makes so much sense. I'd shut down, not able to function, not interested in anything. All symptoms of grief. My kinesiologist came up with the fact that I am dealing with a feeling of being let down. It is good to be able to put some words to the confusing array of feelings that I have been having.
I started back at work today. It was good to have a routine in the day. It was a good day.
I'm also going to the naturopath on Thursday. I am taking a naturopathic supplement for depression, but it's low dose and is not really working. There was another one I used to take that worked much better so I will talk to about that and all the other difficulties I am struggling with right now. It's time to get back on track. I've been shut down long enough.