In a muddle.

 

 

I don’t know where I am at the moment.  This pain in my back and side is all consuming and is leaving me not being able to do much.  Thank goodness I go to my appointments tomorrow!  As I know I am not pregnant, I took some anti-inflammatories today, so hopefully that will help.

But I am also a mix of emotions.  From relief, to sadness, to frustration, to gratefulness, to going with the flow, to positivity, to clarity, back to frustration, muddiness and doubt.  I need to let it all go and just be.

I did a post yesterday about the opportunities that going through another cycle has given me.  For some reason I didn’t post it.  I’m not sure why.  It just didn’t feel right.

The gist of it is though, is that I am grateful for the opportunity to continue my healthier eating patterns before we conceive.  Things have been SO much better in that regard and I would really like the opportunity to see and feel the results of that before I start turning into a big turnip!!!

I’ve taken a break from all the herbs I have been taking.  It feels right to just stop for a while while my body goes through its cleansing from the last cycle.

I don’t know where I am with anything at the moment.  And I’m not going worry about it today.  I did too much yesterday, preparing for the school year at my desk and computer, and aggravated my back from the sitting.  So, today, I am going to rest everything.  My mind, my body, my soul.  I’m heading down to the shops to buy a novel (unheard of for me.  I’m a library girl!!) and hire some movies. It’s time to try and let go of the guilt over work and snuggle in for a day of rest and recovery and not much else!!

Photo:
Today I thought I would steer away from other peoples babies photos and share with you one of my shots.   This photo was taken at one

of our local southern beaches.  We have gorgeous beaches around here and this is one of favourite photos!