Thursday, March 11, 2010

Cycle 10

I got my period this morning and, all of a sudden,  I am deep down in the dumps.  I need to get through it so I can find the positive once more.  It is there, I already know what the positive is, I just have to wade through this deep sadness in order to find it on the other side.  It’s there waiting for me, I can see it.

In the meantime, I have to get to work and get through the day. 

I see King Acupunc today, so that will be good I suppose.  He will needle me so that I have a thorough cleansing of my uterus, so that we can start again all clean and refreshed.

Another positive is that it is good that there is a cleansing after my HSG scan.   I am grateful for that.  Ah there you go, a little bit better.  Wait…, no…, not just yet.

The strong positive that I can see, is that this week D and I together made a commitment to eating 100% healthily for 12 weeks.  I put together a list of foods based on a combination of Sandy Robertsons’ book, advice from King Acupunc and a little bit of Weight Watchers knowledge thrown in.  Essentially, it is a focus on fruit and veg and what and how much of it we need to eat every day.  So, any meal planning is based around fruit and veg.

This difference for me, is that we are doing this together.  I feel so good about that.  And it has made it so much easier.  Thank you, D.

We are both already feeling a lot better after just three days.  I know this will help in our goal towards conception.  And it is important to me, to try and shift some weight, so I can better deal with the demands of pregnancy.  So, that is a big positive in getting another period.

But right now, I need to feel this sadness, I suppose.  I certainly don’t want to, but it is there and needs to be felt in order to pass.

I apologise for not keeping up with my blogging these last few days.  There simply has been no time to do anything else but work orientated jobs.  I look forward to catching up with everyone over the next few days.

Love and Light,


  1. Yes, I expect that having your period would bring a sense of sadness, once you have worked through those emotions, try to look ahead and know that you are doing everything possible to prepare your body for your pregnancy. All the planets have to line up for everything to be perfect so patience will be necessary.


  2. You are going through so much right now. Take good care of yourself, and don't worry about your blogs. Put your energy into you and D. The rest will come.

  3. I know how disappointing it is when your period comes and you are ttc. Hang in there though and think positive. It will happen!

  4. Deb, your words stayed with me throughout yesterday. Thanks for reminding me that I am doing what I can and that things need to be lined up.

    Donna - good advice! I haven't worried about it too much which is good. But I am glad to be catching up.

    Thanks Mary. It will happen, it will happen, it will happen, it will happen... :)

  5. Hi there - nice to meet you! Thank you for visiting my blog, I hope my post on things I'm glad I never knew before I became a Mom have not put you off!

    I won't go into all the details here but I've been down the road you are on and I know how it can completely take over your life and what an emotional rollercoaster ride it can be too.

    You have good news so think positively, now you have to get all the advice you can on what to do to make sure you time things right and do everything possible to help mother nature along.

    If you ever want to chat I'm only too happy too - it can be a lonely road. Or come and laugh at what's ahead of you as an older Mom. I will be following you and wish you all the luck in the world.

    Where in Oz do you live? I'm a transplanted Brit and my best friend from school lives in Melbourne. I love what I have seen of Australia and hope to take my daughter one day.

  6. It is nice to meet you as well AM and to have you visiting here! No, you haven't put me off. I have enough friends with kids and nieces and nephews to have seen and been told a lot of things. Still, I am still surprised and taken aback lately by the things that I haven't been told! It is good to hear it all.

    Does your blog include your conception journey from the past?

    I look forward to hearing more of what is ahead of us!

    We are in South Australia.

  7. Hi again! Glad you are feeling better today - D sounds like a great guy for bolstering your spirits! I've not written on my blog about my conception journey yet. I only started blogging last month and I find I can't just stop thinking of things to write about, it's as if I've been storing all these thoughts and feelings up for years and now they just have to come out! So there will no doubt be a lot more about how life changing it has all been!

    If you want to talk more at any time you can reach me via my email link on my blog.

  8. I'm glad you've goofed around with D and had a better day since you wrote this. :)

    I must ask though: is it time to consider invitro? Is it physically and financially possible?

    I see that you've met Aging Mommy. She wants more than one child, but time may have run out. Once you have one child, you may want another.

    Just wondering...I want so much for you to have your baby...because "you" want him or her so much.

  9. Hi Anita! Yes, we are at the point of considering IUI or IVF. We have made the decision to keep trying on our own until the end of the year. We completely believe in our natural approach and believe it will work.

    However, at the end of the year, our waiting period on our health fund finishes and we will then be able to choose where we go and who we have take us through IVF, and be financially assisted with it. At this stage, we can't do that.

    I know time isn't on our hands, however this seems like great timing for us. A few months more with the assistance of natural medicine and healthy lifestyle and then, if we still haven't succeeded, diving into our own choice of traditional medicine.

  10. I like the fact that you and D remain positive! Your plan sounds like a good one. Of course, I always HOPE the natural "approach" happens, but I'm glad that you are open to get your baby here by other means.

  11. Yes, you do need to work through the emotions and I'm glad you have such a wonderful mate to share all of this with and also your blogging friends here. I just know one of these days your dreams will become a reality. I just feel it. Hang in there.