It's confirmed. There is no pregnancy. It's over. The end.
Dave and I will have to talk about where we go from here. Is it another round (which I just don't think I have in me) or is it accepting that we are involuntarily childless and moving on from infertility?
I was disappointed today to find, for the first time in all my internet wanderings, sites devoted to the involuntarily childless. To come across these sites today of all days. It's heartbreaking.
However they have helped me to consider the possibility that that may be my new life. That I may have to make that adjustment and find new dreams. I've started bookmarking them in my reader.
If that is the case, it will be time to say goodbye to this blog and start afresh. New blog, new blogger name, new blogger links. My decision on continuing IVF is probably 50/50. Desire versus ability to do be able to do it again is a tricky path to walk.
So so sorry to hear this. I so understand the place you are at...for a couple months after my last miscarriage I had hope for another pregnancy but when my bloodwork confirmed the start of pre-menopause, I knew it was over and I needed to find a way to work thru my grief/depression about being childless...it took a year but I am on the other side and happy to say I am in much better place now...a new life's journey awaits. Whatever you and yours decide upon, just know there are many others like me out there who have been where you are right now and have come out the other side with a new prespective on life without children. Big hugs!
ReplyDeleteThanks Jen. I appreciate your support.
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I'm so sorry to read this. Take time and take care of yourself. XOXO
ReplyDeleteThanks Laura. It's been good to share the journey with you. I'm so happy for you and wish all the best with all that is to come!
DeleteI';m so sorry to hear that. Anyway I hope things will work just fine for you
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