Hi all! Sorry I haven't been around much or kept up blogging - both posting and commenting. There just doesn't seemed to have been time in my head for it! But I have really appreciated the comments I have received and have enjoyed quick catch ups on your blogs to see how things are going for you.
One of the reasons that there has been no time, is that we have been tackling some major projects around the home - clutter clearing, organising, building, gardening - all outdoor projects which is an area we haven't tackled since D moved in. See my other blog - Creating Peaceful Thoughts- for all the details!
The clutter clearing and building in particular, held a lot of significance for me in regards to our conception journey, because I saw it as clearing away lots of rubbish in order to make room for bringing a new life into our home and lives. And the building of a work area in the carport was like adding a new room to our home and saw us becoming more efficient both inside and outside the home with more clutter clearing, organising and creating of space.
The process is continuing with much more still to do. And each step forward always signifies to me, more space in our lives for bubs to come in.
That was one of the really positive things that has happened and is still happening!
This, plus so many other little signs last cycle though, made me really hopeful about a positive result. I was sure that we were finally going to conceive. So, when my new cycle began, I was so upset. It was the first time I have really truly cried over a new cycle. And it occurred just as we were about to go away for the weekend and with visitors! Oh dear. Somehow, with D's help and support, I managed to get through that little episode secretly with our visitors none the wiser, and a wonderful weekend away!
However, the positive thing in this new cycle is that the length was back down to 30 days. I haven't had a 30 day cycle since before we started trying a year and a half ago. It always takes around 3 months for new naturopathic meds to really kick into the system and it has now been that long since Queen Naturo put me on new hormones.
I truly believe that my system is balanced so much better and more ready to conceive - a 30 day cycle is awesome for me. A few weeks ago I was all ready to go see my other naturopath for a second opinion (who I haven't seen at all since the journey began), but this has brought my belief back again to the awesome duo that I have my faith in.
It also means that I once again, have such hopes for this cycle. A blessing and a curse all at once!!
** King Acupunc has become more gungho about getting us pregnant after going to yet another fertility workshop. He came away equipped with more ideas, more specific points to needle me, and with lots of charts for me to fill in! I appreciate this passion he has to ensure results and hope it works!
** Mr. Ayuveda is continuing to help me, this time working with my own feelings and instincts on what is going on for me. Every now and then I turn up at his door with such a clear image on what is wrong and when it is that strong he is able to get a clearer picture himself on what is needed.
This week was all about helping my soul to find my body. I have been feeling so strongly that I am living outside of my body, up in my head. And I think it has been this way for a long time, which is a big reason for my struggles with weight and food addiction. Before I saw him, I managed for split seconds every now and then to be able to become grounded in myself. And every time I did, for that split second, the food cravings would disappear completely.
Now, after his session, I am able to ground myself and feel centered for longer periods, which is really helping with healthy eating and feeling more peaceful. Which in turn, will help us conceive, I'm sure!