I’ve always appreciated Anita’s comments and concern and support for our journey. I value her on-line friendship greatly. In this comment, she expressed her concern over my physical and emotional trials and wondered if it wasn’t time that I get on with fertility treatments and “get on with the business of being a wife and mom! :)”
She was writing this comment, just as I was writing my last post “Again???”, which came with a much more healed and renewed approach!
I started to write a response and after about 5 paragraphs, realised it was much more than a comment and has now morphed into this post documenting where we are with our thinking on fertility treatments!!
We had just started the fertility treatment process, when I got pregnant naturally. It was amazing! We were so excited. Even though it didn’t work out, we have found renewed hope that we can do this naturally. So we have decided to give it just a couple of months to see if it can happen again!
I so don't want to go through all the hormone treatments of fertility. I know I will struggle with them, with the emotions and the time, and all else that goes with it. Ultimately though, I will do anything of course, but just a couple of months of trying is the right choice for us now. It will be good!
In retrospect, we are very happy that we got pregnant before going too far into the process with the OB that we saw. I didn't like him! He was very negative about getting pregnant over 40 and I don't need that attitude or the energy that he gave out. We have another name of an OB now (a female), recommended by our doctor, and will go with her if unsuccessful this month and the next. This will also take me closer to the end of the year and the summer break, which will be much easier to handle.
While I don't like the emotions/physical things that have been happening, I do see them as an important growth process for me, just as they were last time – 12 years ago. I realised last night that I haven't binged for nearly three weeks now. I feel the changes that are happening in my life, and I'm so glad. Things are on the improve.
Thank you so much Anita for your concern and your support!
Love and light