This morning I woke up feeling normal! No deep sadness, no anxiety pains. I didn’t have the overwhelmingly sad dreams that I have been having every night. Wow. It feels so different.
Unfortunately, Dave heads off on Monday for another week away. This is the time of year that he has to travel. It is just bad timing for me. Last time he was away (last week) was when my anxiety kicked in, and that was just 2 nights. Hopefully I will be fine.
I have a flute course for the week, so it will be something different and I will be spending the day with colleagues listening to one of the “Gods” of the flute world rather than in a little room on my own teaching my students. That has got to be better for me! It is a lot of travel every day as it is in the city and I live in the outer suburbs but today, for the first time, I am looking forward to it.
Today is my last teaching day for three weeks. (Aside from one exam student during the holidays). I am looking forward to my last student! My three weeks “holidays” though are not holidays. Next week – flute course. The week after I am tutoring at music camp. And the following week I have to get the EOFY accounting done.
I really could do with a full week off, but I should be able to grab a few days here and there. And if I go into Dave’s office to do the accounting, not only will I be with him, but I will be more focused and should get it done more quickly.
So, a better day today. I am grateful.
Handing it over to God. And Trusting.